Minggu, 13 November 2011

My Letter For Him, A Star

Dear ___-sshi how r you? what r you doing? have you eaten? Dont exercise too much~ rest well :')
recently I watched some photos~ and it's enough making me, ahh~ I dont know how to express it..
Im curious~~ I hope my expectation was wrong~~ I hope :(
and~ lately, why I always feel sad when I watch you? I dont know why, every I saw you, every I thought you~~
I heard your last performance~~ is there any girl that you sing for? why, it seems like you were singing so good~
but, in same time~~ I felt my heart trembled so hard~~ Im afraid, I'll know some facts that might hurt me :(
what should I do? when you always show us your stony face in front of your hand phones? who is the person that you text?
other people, might think that Im too much, or anything else~ dont care, because they cant feel it like what I do
thankyou~~ ___-sshi I dont know, as time goes by~ this feel will be more harsh for me, am I wrong to love with this way?
I even dont know, what is this~~ love? like? obsess? or just a feel for idol? I even dont know~~ but, there is something. that I feel for real~ I feel your sadness, your happiness~~ everything.. But, are you doing the same? feel me?
everytime I think about it~ it's useless~ the answer always be the same, never gonna change..
hahhahaa~ should I laugh like that? to hide and cover them, and pretend like there was nothing happen~
you know, I even havent met you yet~~ it's ridiculous to have this feeling toward person that I havent met yet
I always beg the opportunity, the distance, and the destiny~~ so I can be with you just for a while.. please...
but, once again~ they never gonna change~~ it's just like hugging a cloud, which you never can hug..
you are like a mist, which I never can kiss.You are like the air, which I never can touch..
you are like shadow, which I never can follow, it's just like loving you, who can't be mine.. hahahaa should I laugh or cry?
I Love you, can you feel that? You seem like doesn't. Everytime I dreamt about you... Can you feel my love?
You seems doesn't know that I love you, I'm saying from the bottom of my heart..
I can't tell you straight, I'm afraid that I got rejected with my ugly appearance, I never be compatible for you,
I hope you love me, like how I love you, I don't know how you feel towards me, but you're just totally amazing to me..
I never had your love~~ and I never will.. at least I wanna change that "never" word~ cuz there's nothing impossible, rite?
you know? every night, I keep lying awake, thinking maybe you love me like I've always loved you~ but how u can love me?
but how you can love me, if you never look me? if you never meet me? if I never come to your life~ damn
dont you know? I’ve never felt this way, to be so in love, to have someone there, yet feel so alone.
do you know? I always hope, you are the person that wipe my tears when Im crying, the one that stay by my side..
the one that say, "I never would leave you" the one that lend me his shoulder when Im tired, r u supposed to be that person?
I don’t know what hurts you, but I can feel it too. And it’s just hurt so much, to know that I can’t do a thing :( im sorry
u r love that cannot be erased, even my tear glance broke because these painful tears.. Never, I can erase you from my heart
Like stupid. But your name has imprinted in my heart deep in my heart. Leave a burden feeling, leave heartbreak..
But I won’t to stop from loving you boy, my one way love~~ hahaa Cause, loving you is all that I can do.. nothing else~
once again~ Though, you don’t know bot this, Im fine Im fine, cause my love for you is all about giving.. no more~
I don’t want anything else, but your smile even if my heart broke, until pieces, Im fine, If I could see u in ur great smile
you know? even if i hold out my hands, no matter how much i call out, you're always far from me
it'll be a love that becomes painful scars, why can't i erase it? why? is that too difficult?
i try to comfort myself with the lie that i'm happy if you just smile, because the place you're going towards is not me..
i must have gotten ill from missing you so much, from loving you too much.. the one that I havent met yet~~ is you ___-sshi
why rite now, I dont dare to see you? why I like this? ~~ so hurt ><
This road that we are walking together, not just ending again as a memory, but will be preserved like today forever..
Saying "I love you" I should have waited more Now, how should I express my feelings? please hear me~
Although everything changes, I will love you with my true heart~ I hope I can do it~~
Can you love? As much as I have approached? this far~~ nope, Im giving up in my line~~ here
It's okay although it isn't "love", Because I see you. It's okay...
It's okay, you just have to know that I love you...
E.N.D

well~~ he is the person that make me always smile like this, and cry like that. Fore everything that you have given to me~ Im very thank :) I hope someday, I will be in your heart like you that always in my heart. Love you

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